[ she just sort of laughs as soon as she acquires the sword. she knows it's not enough. she made a deal with the devil to be stronger and guess what it got her... #fucked. but she at least knows she needs to be able to deal with the shit here, so having yamato is definitely going to be better than her heart weapon. ]

...nothing is ever enough, honestly. [ she breathes out a sigh, hangs her head, and gives it a shake. ] I'll never be good enough and that fucken sucks, you know? [ a bitter laugh as she turns the blade on herself, because she's curious about something. ] What makes me... me... [ she's a member of heart soldier senshi, so she can remove her soul and put it elsewhere, so she doesn't die, but she went one step beyond and her soul doesn't even reside in tokyo-f anymore, which is why she's unable to die even in games where that should be possible. ]

[ time to do a fucken stab! she's going to drive the blade through herself, smirking the entire time, because she's got to know what, if anything, would happen. ]