... It's typically not an attack against you though. Like you said, it's without a second thought, because in comparison to their life and relationships, you're just not a major part of it. You wouldn't think twice about a conbini worker even though you stopped by everyday, because they're just 'that guy' to you.
But what I'm trying to get around to is... why's it feel bad to talk with people when everyone's got the same understanding that we're in a place where sometimes, someone has to die, and no one wants that someone to be their important people? Which you sometimes are and sometimes aren't.
I don't know. More and more lately....I feel like I want to reserve my feelings for people I actual care about and who actual care about me. Rather than waste my energy making small talk with people who are going to let me die and who I'm going to let die in return.
But... I don't see how closing yourself to only a few people will make things less lonely. If anything, doesn't it mean you'll invest yourself more and more in them, so if something were to happen...
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... It's typically not an attack against you though. Like you said, it's without a second thought, because in comparison to their life and relationships, you're just not a major part of it. You wouldn't think twice about a conbini worker even though you stopped by everyday, because they're just 'that guy' to you.
But what I'm trying to get around to is... why's it feel bad to talk with people when everyone's got the same understanding that we're in a place where sometimes, someone has to die, and no one wants that someone to be their important people? Which you sometimes are and sometimes aren't.
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... I think it'd actually be harder and more tiring, living like that.
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... If you think it will work for you.
But... I don't see how closing yourself to only a few people will make things less lonely. If anything, doesn't it mean you'll invest yourself more and more in them, so if something were to happen...
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We do too.
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I mean more... it sounds like you don't want to find new friends either?
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... If this is what you wanna do, I'll support you. And I'll be here, so tell me if there's anything more I can be doing?