SENSITIV

[idolpro]

This room is not real.

That's the first thought that crosses your mind as soon as your consciousness comes back up. You're not even sure if that's your own thought, but the feeling doesn't leave no matter how much time has passed. The room looks nice and cozy, but everything feels wrong. You don't belong here, you're you, aren't you?

Aren't you?

You'll soon notice that there are other things that just isn't right. You can talk, but is your mouth moving? You can see, but are your eyes blinking? You also have ball joints. Nothing hurts, and you're fine, but it's a little weird.

Comments

ROUND 1

[idolpro]

DISCUSSION

[idolpro]

Re: DISCUSSION

[backstory]

[ Thanks, his claw is gone, he hates it. ]

Haven't we earned more of a break than this?

Re: DISCUSSION

[sancrimony]

[ oh i hate this. ]

Re: DISCUSSION

[cw_suicide]

[... ahahahaha

yep, he's laughing]

DECISION

[idolpro]

Please list it like this:

1. [TEAM] - ACTION
2. [TEAM] - ACTION
3. [TEAM] - ACTION
4. [TEAM] - ACTION

Or [SACRIFICE - ASPECT] if you choose to sacrifice.

Re: DECISION

[sancrimony]

1. SACRIFICE - Love
2. SACRIFICE - Compassion
3. AlcheME! - Tears (but not the reason for those tears)
4. Taisho Roman Revolution - Dragon hand (specifically dragon, they cannot be not dragon)

RESULTS

[idolpro]

LOSSES - EYES, HUNGER, BRAIN

You can feel that you've also gained a lot of your SELF. It feels a lot more real now: TEARS, DRAGON HAND

You got dragon hands. They feel very meaty and scaly but you know how to use them. (Where did they come from...)

You also gain tears! You cannot help but blink back the tears in your eyes, they will not stop.

Re: ROUND 1

[idolpro]

THINGS THAT CANNOT BE STOLEN: LOVE, COMPASSION

ROUND 2

[idolpro]

DISCUSSION

[idolpro]

Re: DISCUSSION

[cw_suicide]

[none of this is actually pleasant, and there's a confused yet distressed kind of cry of pain as his eyes shatter, hands pushing at the empty sockets as he groans, feeling that sickening sloshing around happening in his skull...

and then, of course, the distressed laughing]

CW: Eye trauma

[backstory]

[ On the ground, he clutches at his eyes in pain, gritting his fangs as his eyes freeze--and then break to shatter into pieces. ]

Nng...

[ His eyes and head are killing him, throbbing and piercing. ]

Lucifel...Susanoo?

[ Blinking, the pain continues and he can feel the pieces falling from his sockets.

Are the other two alright...? Amid his own blinding pain he can't remember if he heard them above his own cries. And he can't see them now to verify their statuses himself ]

DECISION

[idolpro]

Please list it like this:

1. [TEAM] - ACTION
2. [TEAM] - ACTION
3. [TEAM] - ACTION
4. [TEAM] - ACTION

Or [SACRIFICE - ASPECT] if you choose to sacrifice.

Re: DECISION

[sancrimony]

1. SACRIFICE - Joy
2. SACRIFICE - Self-awareness
3. avante en garde - Brains
4. BAD END=DEAD END - Comfort

RESULTS

[idolpro]

LOSSES - CUTENESS, HANDS, NAMES, PESSIMISM

GAINED: BRAINS, COMFORT

THINGS THAT CANNOT BE STOLEN: LOVE, COMPASSION, JOY, SELF-AWARENESS

ROUND 3

[idolpro]

DISCUSSION

[idolpro]

Re: DISCUSSION

[cw_suicide]

[.... the fuck is this sensation????

HE CAN'T SEE SHIT, HE'S WEARING A POTATO SACK, HE DOESN'T KNOW HIS OWN NAME, AND YET HE IS COMFORTABLE AS FUCK AND EVERYTHING IS SURE TO TURN OUT WELL






THIS MAKES NO SENSE??!?!?]

... well, that could have been worse.

DECISION

[idolpro]

Please list it like this:

1. [TEAM] - ACTION
2. [TEAM] - ACTION
3. [TEAM] - ACTION
4. [TEAM] - ACTION

Or [SACRIFICE - ASPECT] if you choose to sacrifice.

RESULTS

[idolpro]

LOSSES - LIBIDO, LEGS, SKIN

GAINED: Innovation, laziness

THINGS THAT CANNOT BE STOLEN: LOVE, COMPASSION, JOY, SELF-AWARENESS, FINGERNAILS, LUNGS, REGRET, HATE

FINAL ROUND

[idolpro]

Why do you think you are currently the most human of all?

Re: FINAL ROUND

[cw_suicide]

The exterior of a human doesn't really matter much, since humans come in all shapes, sizes, and capabilities. Emotionally, too, humans vary quite a bit. But arguably, centermost to humanity is a certain balancing of positive and negatived traits, being almost contrary to the point of internal conflict. Those were the traits we kept safely with us. We already had them and that's why, along with these tears which show the continuous inner conflict humans feel within themselves, we are the most human.

[yeah, he doesn't know. he's bullshitting a lot.]

Re: FINAL ROUND

[sancrimony]

We preserved that which would make us ourselves—Love. Compassion. Joy. Self-awareness. Regret. Hatred. Without these things, I would not be myself.

It does not matter what form one may take—they may not have flesh, but were they to have these aspects, then they would most certainly be, without question, human.

The ability to look back to the past and carry that burden with you; the ability to look to yourself and know who you are; the ability to see past the hurts to recognize the shared struggle between yourself and another, and in doing so, forgiving them; the ability to love them, to care for them; and in the same measure the ability to hate them, to resent them; the ability to feel such immeasurable wonder, unadulterated happiness even if only for a moment.

Such is human.

Re: FINAL ROUND

[backstory]

I have always maintained that it is not what is on the outside that matters. Rather, an enduring spirit and will to persevere, even in light of great trauma is what makes a human being incredible.

Despite all the hardship we have endured, we stand--

[ Well... ]

We exist strong and will continue to shout at the sun that no matter what might come our way, we will continue to fight. For we are dragons and we are humans. We have retrained that which is most vital to us and none shall be able to take it away from us. These tears that stream down my face are proof of the emotion and innate character that still resides within, and because we possess both love and hate, sadness, and lungs, no physical mutilation can take that away from us. Because our skin is but a shell to our souls, and our spirits have survived.