The Last Supper - sensitIV

[idolpro]

[ The elevator lets you out into a private room: from the decor, it is doubtlessly an enclave of the restaurant you saw earlier on screen.

Your phones have filled with a rather sizable rule list. ]

Comments

[sancrimony]

[ honestly looking paler to talk about it at all ]

. . . It isn't a burden for you to forgive, anyway.

[ his voice is tight, and he shakes his head. like honestly those are true points but also what if I hate myself forever instead ]

Regardless - I won't do that to another.

[rollwillpowercheck]

It's not, but... it's something I think at least someone should say to you.

[sancrimony]

. . . Forgive me for disbelieving your words.

[rollwillpowercheck]

[firmly:]

You can disbelieve all you want. They're still true.

[sancrimony]

[ closes his eyes ]

Then I'll disbelieve you.

[rollwillpowercheck]

Lucifel.

[that's fine, he'll get a truth potion after this is all over,]

[sancrimony]

. . . It isn't as if I think you're lying, but how could I accept that?

[rollwillpowercheck]

I don't understand.

[sancrimony]

[ quieter, fingers flexing into his stomach again ]

. . . How could I begin to forgive myself?

[rollwillpowercheck]

[therapy]

It won't... be easy. But accepting that it wasn't your fault...

[sancrimony]

. . . It was by my own hand, Anubis-san.

[ quieter, but full of emotion ]

With this mouth . . . with this tongue, with these teeth, with this throat! I did something so despicable - not for any other reason than loneliness, a twisted thought that I could - somehow, that it would be acceptable for me to . . . take and keep a part of someone like this -

[ his voice breaks, fingers twisted in his gut to the point of pain ]

The fault is mine alone. The responsibility of such an unforgivable deed lies on this monster - there isn't anyone else who justly deserves such a burden.

[rollwillpowercheck]

[grabs Lucifel's wrists, tugging at them -- not that he's even remotely a match for Lucifel's strength, but.]

And if any of us did the same... would we be monsters? Would you think we were unforgivable?

[sancrimony]

[ too tightly wounded to let him pull, hunched over ]

. . . It isn't in my place to forgive you.

[ but he does speak again after a moment ]

I could . . . only accept you as you are.

[ with a shake of his head ]

But - you mustn't. If you can avoid it, you mustn't.

[rollwillpowercheck]

[puts his arms around Lucifel instead, then. but he doesn't say anything.]

[sancrimony]

[ stiff, but at least he doesn't smell good ,-, his head drops to anubis' shoulder after a moment ]

[rollwillpowercheck]

[unitmates are friends, not food. he just holds him.]

[sancrimony]

[ he doesn't relax against him, but he does start to shake a little - like he might cry, or he's holding it back, or something along those lines. his voice is thick ]

. . . S. . . sorry. . . my apologies. I know I'm being unreasonable. . .

[rollwillpowercheck]

[makes a soft sound of acknowledgement, gently rubbing his back.]

[sancrimony]

[ are you TRYING TO MAKE ME CRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]