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Eclipse's Heart Game ☉ Session #2
You drift like you're floating in water. It's almost relaxing, actually. As long as you don't think too hard that what you're floating in may be bottomless, because under you lies only a deep darkness that only the ocean can provide.
Then something grabs you and drags you deeper, down, down, down into the abyssal depths. You can't breathe, but that's not on the forefront of your mind now, is it?
There is a mounting sense of anxiety and dread.
Who do you want to become? Will you even get to see tomorrow? What if all roads lead to ████████? Can you still stay '███'? If people see the ████ you, will they think less of you? Will they feel cheated?
You want to live. Even if it's a ███, even if your hands must be covered in █████, you want to live. You want to be '███'.
Finally, a voice pierces through the darkness. It a woman's voice.
"My, how unfortunate. Your journey ends before it even begins."
"... Just kidding. That would be terribly boring! I suppose I can do the boy a favour just this once."
You feel someone grab your arm and pull you up to the surface.
...
When you come to, you are standing somewhere else.
Then something grabs you and drags you deeper, down, down, down into the abyssal depths. You can't breathe, but that's not on the forefront of your mind now, is it?
There is a mounting sense of anxiety and dread.
Who do you want to become? Will you even get to see tomorrow? What if all roads lead to ████████? Can you still stay '███'? If people see the ████ you, will they think less of you? Will they feel cheated?
You want to live. Even if it's a ███, even if your hands must be covered in █████, you want to live. You want to be '███'.
Finally, a voice pierces through the darkness. It a woman's voice.
"My, how unfortunate. Your journey ends before it even begins."
"... Just kidding. That would be terribly boring! I suppose I can do the boy a favour just this once."
You feel someone grab your arm and pull you up to the surface.
...
When you come to, you are standing somewhere else.
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Hmmmmm, hm, well ... [ Rubs her chin ] Tell me more about it. I don't want to suggest things without understanding his feelings first.
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"He recently found out he's the unwitting heir of a deeply problematic legacy. As far as he knows, he's come into great power, but with that also great responsibility, great consequences, and the very distinct possibility of great madness in his future. It's overwhelming, he can barely comprehend it, and that's on top of learning some unpleasant truths.
Of course, he then proceeds to lose his shit over his name, because finding out he unwittingly set himself up for the irony of being named 'Eclipse' over 280 days ago makes him feel foolish. He deeply dislikes the person who suggested it to him as well, so it's become more unpleasant with this discovery.
... It's just him trying to focus on something 'smaller' though, because the bigger question of 'what do I do with myself from now on?' is harder to answer."
He says it so bluntly that it sounds a little harsh, but he doesn't seem unsympathetic towards Eclipse either.
"... And there are far too many other things in the background that don't help. You may be better served looking at and touching some things in this room and in Perception, if you want to learn about the rest of those."
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[ Bounces on her heels. ]
Okay, I'm off - oh, wait, before I go, what's your name?
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[ Before she goes, though, she's going to take a look at the wooden board she'd noticed. ]
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On the very top row:
"People should be free to choose their own path."
Middle row:
"The freedom to make decisions also means the freedom to bear the consequences."
"Hypocrisy is abhorrent."
"You can't help others if you don't help yourself."
"Always be wary of putting too much stock in the rightness or goodness of your own actions."
"Everything has a price."
Bottom row:
"Sacrifice in the name of the 'greater good' is self-righteous bullshit."
"Don't make promises you can't keep."
"The ones who are the most difficult to love and care for probably need it the most."
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[ She's reading the line about self-sacrifice again ]
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[ Points to the self-sacrifice thing ]
D'you know what happened?
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What people do with their own lives is up to them, I s'pose, but dragging someone else into it crosses a line. [ She is! Not! A fan! ]
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"... Well, they aren't the only reason why he feels that way, but they certainly didn't help."
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[ Frown! Intensifies! ]
Well, AlcheME's here for him now. We've got his back.
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"I can tell you he's much happier and more comfortable with you witches and wizards, at least."
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[ And off she goes, heading back to Perception! ]
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There's one large table in the centre of the room, which has a huge writing slate laid on it, along with some pieces of chalk. Next to it is a piece of paper with a cat's pawprint (a contract...?), a book with an olive drab cover, and a glass eye.
Various writings are scattered here and there on the slate, like some work-in-progress collection of thoughts. You could take a closer look.
There are two exits: The door to the main library, and the door to 'Principles'.
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You aren't kind, gentle or good. Don't ever lie to yourself about that.
And beneath that is:
Even if it isn't kind, you should tell things as you see it.
If you're going to be an asshole, at least have the decency to own it.
If someone tries to hurt you, you stab them.
There are other messages written on the slate. These seem to be more like quotes:
"Well, you're clever, insightful, and a devoted friend to those who have earned your trust.
Perhaps it's one of those."
"You're clever, insightful, a quick wit, often very funny, and a constant friend. Or, you know, I'd hope he sees that in you."
"It sounds like you were just what she needed.
I can see why you'd be so good at it. You've helped me think through a number of things as well."
"...I underestimated you. I didn't think you would remember all of that.
No, I wouldn't say it's a bad habit. Honestly I should be grateful you felt it was important to remember something like that."
"I don't want to become the sort of person who says they care for others, but then doesn't think about how what they do would actually affect those people. That's all."
"Knew you'd bounce back quick though. That's what I told D.Va. You're a survivor.
Why not? You're pragmatic, you take things for what they are. I'm sure you've been through shit - but you still got a good head on your shoulders. Even made it outta that fucked up ghost house."
And in one corner, there's something like a pros and cons list:
Eclipse:
Wow I sure set myself up for this punchline ten months ago like a godsdamn idiot
Fuck ████████
On the other hand it's MY name
Mildly troublesome to tell people about a new name besides this but that's nothing
There was a Skylark here before but, eh, whatever
Gracious Skylark:
It's from my mom
It'd match Crane and Shrike and honestly that's so much better
It's not like the present me and the past me are all that different, apart from the baggage
It's MY name
I don't know how many people already know it but it'd make transitioning less awkward I guess
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[ but also ... she looks around for something else that she can write on, she's not sure she should just go ahead and scribble directly on what looks to be a really important Thing ]
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