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Nemesis Heart - R3

[The first time you try to open your eyes, there is nothing but red.]

[Questions bubble up, voiceless:

What will you keep?

What will you change?

What will you do?]

[And then your eyes open.]

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["If I knew how to do that... Well. I would still be here. But maybe I wouldn't have to be here alone." She sighs, messing with her flower crown. "You got any ideas? You got people you care about, right?"]

I have lots of people I care about.

So you'd be her sense of self worth at the moment?

["Not exactly. More like...passion. Daring. Selfishness, maybe, not not necessarily in a bad way. But she hasn't done much with me for a while, despite me being obviously the most important person to listen to." She looks exasperated and somehow a little concerned]

Selfishness is definitely not a bad thing in moderate amounts.

....do you know why she doesn't? What makes her so afraid to be selfish?

["...You think she's afraid?" She ridges her brows. "I figured she just...got tired or something."]

Tired of what exactly?

["Fighting. Caring. Trying to convince people. I dunno." She shrugs, troubled. "That kinda stuff's a lot of work. And if you're just gonna fail anyway... I'm just saying I see the logic."]

Trying to convince people of what? Fight and care for what?

["For what she wants...convincing people that it's worthwhile.

...I guess? Like I said, that part's not really my department. Fuck 'em, do what you want's more my general MO."]

Has she done a lot of that in Hell? Convincing people its worthwhile? Or trying to.

["...'S been a while, I think." She frowns, chewing on her thumb]

That's more than just tired.

["Or else, that's very tired. Point is... Well, does it really matter in the end?"]

Kinda. Prepares for actually fixing the problem.

Because being tired, whether from wasted effort, or fear, that's gonna be two different things. Wasted effort may just need reassurance. Fear could be a really intense ride and it's good to know which. I mean, I'm still gonna help, but nice to know what to be ready for.

Either way, the fact things are like this means there's a deeper issue.

Edited 2021-01-31 06:51 (UTC)

[She shifts, cocking her head. "You really wanna dig into all of this? I mean, what's in it for you?"]

I like Nemesis, sympathy for stuff, want better for her, would like to be a friend to her.

Hurricane is important to me and she is important to Hurricane.

Because I do dumb things to help people all the time because I have a hard time walking away when I can.

I could probably think of more reasons.

[Requiem looks him over; floats around him, eyes narrowed, as if that will pinpoint something on his shoulder or back that will blow a hole in his testimony]

["Welll... Okay, may as well give it a shot. Shouldn't hurt, anyway...probably."]

[Wholly lacking any flinching. Complete sincerity only.]

Hopefully.

Know where I should start?

[She folds her arms--sits back in the air, crossing her legs as well]

["Actions speak louder than words. You want her to trust you or anybody with stuff, you'll have to get her to trust you. That's gonna take time, too, 'cause she's stubborn and kind of a moron. But if you can stick it out, you should be golden."]

Oh, yeah, of course. That I was already the idea.

I meant more....in here. To like help her self worth and stuff. I'm good long hauling the trust, friendship thing, but like....

Nemesis and Hurricane both worry me because they got real similar issues that are a lot like some of mine, but....worse. Like I can see how they got there and I got lucky and if mine sucks, then theirs is....well. Worrying.

["Mmm..." She purses her lips. "Guess you could try to encourage stuff she's doing now...or see if you could convince her to think a little different before shooting stuff down. Don't think it's gonna be all that easy, though..."]

Probably not, but its a lot more possible if I can interact with the whole mental process. Its pretty hard to explain, but, well, metaphors.

[An eyebrow raise. "Pretty sure that as a heart construct I know a little something about metaphors."

"If you just came from the dorm, maybe see what you can do about the front gate? Honestly I'm surprised you got in here in the first place..."]

Whats up with the front gate?

I got eaten by a shape, flew down a void, broke through a mirror, and ended up in a basement.

["Yeah, she don't like letting people in. ...You wanted metaphor."]

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