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future is now - SATURDAY NOON PST

[ The bar is unit-colored with light unit paraphernalia, although it's all just for show. Fortunately, comfort isn't part of the unit aesthetic this time—all seats are cushioned, whether the booth seats or the bar stools, comfy and lush. Idols can sit anywhere they like, it seems.

There's alcohol available, but everything else is locked behind the wall-cabinet. . . the recipe book is also available to peruse at one's leisure.

Ah—the door opens, and a fuzzy sort of shade steps in. It looks like idols will be serving the Damned, today. . . ? ]

RECIPE BOOK

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It's worth a try. I'll tell another truth for another coffee too.

Alright. Well...

Truthfully, I'm not sure I'm really cut out to be a knight. It's not even what I want to be doing, as much as I love knights. I just wanted to be a mechanic, you know?

But I had to do it for my family. Even though I don't think I can. Even if people cheer me on, even if they see me as strong enough to do it, I really don't think I have the willpower. I'd rather just make things for people who do. That way I can shine as brightly as I'm supposed to.

I see...

Is that what you do here? Make things for people?

That's right! I mean, um, I also do try my best to be the Radiant Knight, too...even if I'm not confident, it's still something important to me! But I feel a lot more useful and proud of what I'm doing when I'm working on a project, so it's what I spend most of my time doing.

In Tokyo-F engineering makes a lot more money than chivalry does, too...that one's kind of weird, but it's a bonus.

If the cabinets don't open up, it sounds like you could talk confidently about your inventions instead.

Oh, that's true! See, you're contributing plenty!

I can provide ideas, it's true.

Those are important! Felicity and I can be really singleminded at times, haha...

I'm not immune to distractions, but I can try to keep us on track.

Right! Speaking of - we have sweet chai tea to make, right? Do you have anything you wanted to do for that? We'll have to tie these ribbons to open the cabinet, I think...

I don't mind that.

[Reaching over to tie the ribbons - feels like he's just serenely neutral.]

[ Her end of the bond is just like, a vague fascination with everything around her molded around a very quiet but obvious bitterness about ?something?

also light and hope. there's a lot of that. ]

Oh, I just thought of something! I actually can do herbs, I just didn't really think of this as fragility? But everyone always talks about it like I'm kind of crazy when I bring it up - I really am not good at being comfortable at all if I'm not at least armed? And preferably I'm well protected, too...that's just how it is back home. You always need to be ready for everything! But also, I guess some of it might be lingering fear since...well, my family was targeted by assassins once. Since we got in the way, you know. We wanted things to change too much.

[ her bond turns dark for just a moment, before evening back out. ]

So I guess I have something lingering from that, too. I'd be dead if I couldn't stave off an arrow to the back, you know? I mean, the attempt on my life was more of a public execution, but if I wasn't as sturdy as I am I wouldn't be here today. Or I guess I would, since there's definitely dead people here...

[There's some mild curiosity on his part, a flicker of surprise at the fact that she's been targeted by assassins.]

...You've lived a harsh life, haven't you?

Oh, not at all. I mean, there's people worse off than even Felicity is in my world - not just my world, but the very nation I live in. How could I ever say I've had it hard compared to something like that?

[ the bitterness gets a bit stronger. ]

At least the things I've done that have put me in danger were my choice. Some people don't even get that much, and a lot of people in the world don't even realize that. They just use people like me to ignore the suffering around them until there's nothing left and then they move on.

Edited 2022-03-19 23:15 (UTC)

[Still serenely neutral.]

Do you feel as though you cannot feel upset if there are others worse off?

Of course not! I just...I don't think there's any point in feeling upset, you know? I'm someone lucky enough to be able to help people who aren't lucky, and feeling bad about things that've happened to me doesn't help anyone. If they can keep moving forward, so can I. I have to.

Maybe it would help yourself? ...I feel some bitterness from you, Luminosity.

Oh, really? It's pretty easy to ignore.

I know the feeling.

...Really?

It doesn't hurt to hate yourself. That's my experience at least.

I mean, I don't think I hate myself...

No, not that part. The easy to ignore part, that is.

[Because even if there's a flicker of self-loathing, it's only that, and quietly smothered under serenity once more.]

[ hm. ]

Oh, I get it, I think. ...Did you have anything you wanted to share for milk?

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