I think that we have to think further into the future than just 'I want to stop one person I care about from dying one singular time', otherwise, I'd be choosing some unit like F- er, HSS, or Bad End, or maybe even avante, but I can't, because I want to try to reinforce the idea that Wild City might not kill the people most dear to me, my family, you, and the other members of sensitIV, in games where we are to be much more cruel than simply voting to defend someone...
They're not going to vote for us. [ firmly. though his voice cracks in a sort of breathless, frustrated despair. ] They're never going to trust us. They're just going to take this as a power move. They're fu-- [ starts to stop himself but actually, no, fuck it ] They're fucking nutjobs.
If they don't take it the way I think they do, the most important part of it is what we do. Not only for Wild City, but for the way we are perceived by the other units too.
How they all react will determine how I act in the future in response.
...But it's okay. I understand, Loki, they are... they are pretty odd. I just can't bring myself to agree with your choice. I still think it's the best thing we can do for ourselves. And besides, I'm certainly no one to call others "nutjobs".
[He's the crazy evil clown after all. He's the idiot who let someone kill him in order to meet Lilith. And he'd been the one to kill Nemesis in such a terrible manner.]
[ ... he's losing this argument and he knows it and honestly the inevitability of the situation is filling him with the urge to lie down and die. too bad they can't even manage to do THAT much this game. ]
... you're not a nutjob. [ albeit weakly, tired. ]
he's such a fuck up he just made his little brother cry ]
Don't, [ half-breathless and with a crack in his voice, ] That's not true. I-
[ well he's certainly hurt right now
and. before this, even, but. even so... ]
... I'm selfish and I know this. I don't trust Wild City at all. But I trust you, and I want to believe that you'll be right, but I can't. ... I can't bring myself to believe in them. That's all...
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[He furrows his brows, turning his eyes away.]
I think that we have to think further into the future than just 'I want to stop one person I care about from dying one singular time', otherwise, I'd be choosing some unit like F- er, HSS, or Bad End, or maybe even avante, but I can't, because I want to try to reinforce the idea that Wild City might not kill the people most dear to me, my family, you, and the other members of sensitIV, in games where we are to be much more cruel than simply voting to defend someone...
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......... ]
They're not going to vote for us. [ firmly. though his voice cracks in a sort of breathless, frustrated despair. ] They're never going to trust us. They're just going to take this as a power move. They're fu-- [ starts to stop himself but actually, no, fuck it ] They're fucking nutjobs.
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How they all react will determine how I act in the future in response.
...But it's okay. I understand, Loki, they are... they are pretty odd. I just can't bring myself to agree with your choice. I still think it's the best thing we can do for ourselves. And besides, I'm certainly no one to call others "nutjobs".
[He's the crazy evil clown after all. He's the idiot who let someone kill him in order to meet Lilith. And he'd been the one to kill Nemesis in such a terrible manner.]
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too bad they can't even manage to do THAT much this game. ]... you're not a nutjob. [ albeit weakly, tired. ]
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Y-yes I am.
Can't... can't predict what I'll do, ever. And all I ever do is hurt people close to me, so...
I'm sorry, Loki. [GOD HE'S SUCH A DISAPPOINTMENT. But he can't say that. He doesn't want to sound like he's guilting Loki.]
It's okay if you're angry with me. I'll... understand.
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he's such a fuck up he just made his little brother cry ]
Don't, [ half-breathless and with a crack in his voice, ] That's not true. I-
[ well he's certainly hurt right now
and. before this, even, but. even so... ]
... I'm selfish and I know this. I don't trust Wild City at all. But I trust you, and I want to believe that you'll be right, but I can't. ... I can't bring myself to believe in them. That's all...
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Nya sniffles, nodding but he can't keep his eyes on Loki's right now. He feels bad for making Loki feel selfish, but he really does understand.]
I'm being selfish too... I just want to hope that... this will make you and the others safer, even for just a little while.