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[SMILES CONFUSEDLY AT LUCIFEL???]

Edited (I'M .................... DIE) 2019-02-02 03:51 (UTC)

[ HELP ]

. . . Is that really - fine - ?

...Of course it is.

Why wouldn't it be...?

[ taking a moment to try to articulate it before he like

just sort of gives up, looking one way and then the other and then like ]

. . . It - you didn't want to . . . before, so . . .

[He nods a little. He and Lucifel certainly... disagreed before.]

Well, we have the alliance now, and so. It would be best for both of our teams if we treated it that way, I think. I don't know if I trust them to think the same way, but I want to extend to them the olive branch, give them the chance.

You know?

[ just like

faintly, like he's not breathing ]

I - understand, but. . .

[ . . . ]

. . . I . . . don't know what . . . uhm . . . thank you . . . ?

[Pauses, not really........ sure..... what is going on here actually. So he goes to hug Lucifel. He guesses?]

[ HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON HE DIDN'T THINK THAT THIS WAS GOING TO PAN OUT AND HE JUST THOUGHT THAT HE SHOULD HANDLE EVERYTHING HIMSELF BUT IT TURNS OUT THAT MAYBE HE HAS SOME FORM OF IMPACT ON THE UNIT AND PEOPLE ARE EVEN GOING ALONG WITH THIS THING AND HE CAME INTO THE GAME IN COMPLETE RESIGNATION AND NOW HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON

startles, stiff for a moment before he

slowly, slowly, wraps his arms around nya and hugs him back ]

[This is the world's most awkward hug and Nya is just going to squeeze him a little harder to try to pretend it isn't.]

[ he relaxes into it, maybe a little forcibly, mumbling quietly ]

. . . Sorry. . . I'm sorry . . .

[Shakes his head against Lucifel.]

You don't need to apologize, Lucifel. It's okay.

. . . I thought -

[ soft ]

I thought you didn't want to . . . because . . . it wasn't ever . . .

. . . it was only ever my fault, so . . .

[Lets up on the hug to look at Lucifel.]

It's... not. [They've all got a hand in it. Nya's sins were not toward WC, but he isn't innocent by any stretch of the imagination.]

Either way, I think it is for the best, don't you? To extend this trust...? Even if we might get burned.

. . . I'm sorry, I just. . .

[ mumbled now, his gaze falling to the ground ]

. . . I just wanted to protect that person, if I could. Haruto-san . . .

[ with a pause ]

It would be best for us, if we could have an ally somewhere - but since . . . Onii-san hates them, and Lavender-san does too . . . I don't really mind if it doesn't work out -

. . . But if it could work out, it would be good. . .

[Nya nods a little at that.]

Haruto-san... right? Mmmh. He certainly seems like someone who could use the help.

...I don't think we'll convince Loki to like them, and maybe not Lavender either, but that doesn't mean we can't work with them to the betterment of both of our units.

. . . I work better with being disliked, so. . .

[ with a quiet breath ]

Logically speaking, it's a good option to take. Mm, Nya-san is a rather levelheaded person . . .

...Do you like being disliked, Lucifel?

[He... doesn't like that thought, but he understands, too. "I work better with being disliked", he gets. Nya doesn't mind personally being disliked, but the problem for him is that it reflects poorly on all of sensitIV, and... they all should get the chance to choose if they are liked as well.]

I'm just trying to do my best. I'm still... just a kid. I think?

[ looking off to the side, a little guarded now ]

. . . It's not as if I like it, but. . . in the first place, that sort of thing is. . .

. . . There isn't much of a reason to be liked, and being disliked is just. . . more . . . honest, so it's easier . . .

[ with a pause ]

Mm, Nya-san's age would be . . . well, when I was alive, it would have been freshly adult, I expect. . . ? But -

We share the same age, and I still feel . . . young.

Mh. I mean, you're not wrong. I... don't mind being disliked. I don't expect people to like me, and yet...

...Sometimes I like to be liked. It's very hard to isolate myself.

And, I'd like other people to feel safe and happy, and sometimes I think that if they like me, rather than dislike me, it might help that more.

. . . I don't mind it.

In some ways, it might be better for me to not be around, so. . . I don't mind. . .

[ with a pause ]

. . . No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't say things like that. Mmm, I don't think you're wrong. . .

I want you to be around, Lucifel. Selfishly, maybe, but I like you. I want to see you happy, too.

[ I DON'T KNOW WHAT WORDS JUST CAME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH just stares like. blankly. uncomprehending. what ]

[Why are you like this, Lucifel?]

...You're my family.

[ oh

,

i guess i'm cry now

he doesn't even register it and then he just kind of

??

????? EVEN MORE CONFUSION over his eyes watering ]

Eh?

[Just pats at Lucifel's shoulders before kissing his cheek.]

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