[It makes her feel, perhaps, a little better. If everyone thinks this is bad... she's just the only one who's cried over it. And she's starting to understand that, whoever she is now and whoever Wednesday's Child was before, her emotions must always run very close to the surface.]
Do you have anyone you want to protect now? I think I must have too many.
Well, it was much simpler... but we were all new then, so it felt like a lot.
In that sense, you shouldn't feel bad for being so upset about this. It is super upsetting and unfair to everyone. Asking us to prioritize some people's lives over other's...
[huffs, trying to tone down her slight grumpiness]
I do, and they're also too many. There's no way I could choose without feeling like I'm putting someone else's lives on the line.
... But that's why, I want to make the kind of choice I won't regret. It's not a choice that will make everything magically okay or that will protect everyone, but it's the choice I know I will be able to live with.
[She knows which way her heart's pulling her, but her head is pulling back, and pulling harder. It's telling her, no. That there's no way she can put a boy she barely knows, no matter how much she might like him, over Prim, and over Hiryuu, and over a unit that would have people like them in.]
I know I'm going to regret something. But... we can't not choose. Even if everyone else chose someone different, if we backed out... then people would still be hurt, wouldn't they?
I just hope the people I can't protect myself stay safe anyway.
You know... I didn't really think they would set all this up, just to allow us to opt out of it somehow. They have to make it worse to do nothing, because otherwise why would anybody agree to do such horrible things at all?
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Thinking back on it, that game was nothing compared to this one. Haaah...
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[Wednesday blinks. It surprises her--
[It makes her feel, perhaps, a little better. If everyone thinks this is bad... she's just the only one who's cried over it. And she's starting to understand that, whoever she is now and whoever Wednesday's Child was before, her emotions must always run very close to the surface.]
Do you have anyone you want to protect now? I think I must have too many.
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In that sense, you shouldn't feel bad for being so upset about this. It is super upsetting and unfair to everyone. Asking us to prioritize some people's lives over other's...
[huffs, trying to tone down her slight grumpiness]
I do, and they're also too many. There's no way I could choose without feeling like I'm putting someone else's lives on the line.
... But that's why, I want to make the kind of choice I won't regret. It's not a choice that will make everything magically okay or that will protect everyone, but it's the choice I know I will be able to live with.
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[She knows which way her heart's pulling her, but her head is pulling back, and pulling harder. It's telling her, no. That there's no way she can put a boy she barely knows, no matter how much she might like him, over Prim, and over Hiryuu, and over a unit that would have people like them in.]
I know I'm going to regret something. But... we can't not choose. Even if everyone else chose someone different, if we backed out... then people would still be hurt, wouldn't they?
I just hope the people I can't protect myself stay safe anyway.
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It's impossible not to regret something, when things are like this... but we can at least try to make sure we won't regret the actions we take.
Inaction is worse... and it's been punished by the Producers in the past, so... it's not a good idea anyway.
Let's hope that as many people as possible can be protected.
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You know... I didn't really think they would set all this up, just to allow us to opt out of it somehow. They have to make it worse to do nothing, because otherwise why would anybody agree to do such horrible things at all?