idolpro | GM Game: LiliS

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- exael

GM Game: LiliS

[ The door shuts behind you, leaving you in a copy of this room. Upon one of the fancy tables is your card for the round, along with slots for each unit for you to go slide in your choices.

You can come and go as you will, but once you have left the room, you cannot speak of anything that transpires within: not your choices, not your discussion, not your alliances.

Do your best, idol-tachi. ]

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Camellia. [ voice soft as she can make it, now ]

It isn't an impossible standard. But I don't mean to fault your compassion for them, and I know you've been working hard this whole game.
Maybe a better way to put this is that I know that feeling is something that BARiTONES has been experiencing for a long time.

And, between the two units, if we're worried about needing to block an attack, I think there's a reasonably good chance ZRAEL would target us, while I am confident that BARiTONES will not.

This isn't even about choosing between Bit and Zrael anymore.

To willingly hurt an entire unit to punish them for the actions of an individual.... When there are people on that unit who are innocent of that persons crimes and may not have even condoned them... Are you really any better?

Edited 2019-12-01 10:15 (UTC)

[ She looks briefly hurt, but quickly schools her expression into something more even. ]

There are reasons for my principles. And I endeavor to hold myself to a high standard in turn. I have a friend on ZRAEL, in fact. I do not want her to be hurt, if it can be avoided. None of these things do I say lightly, or without grave consideration of the consequences.

But please do not take any of this to be so unbending, or so inconsiderate of the rest of you, that I will not accede to what you would prefer to do.

Am I supposed to be happy that I receive more consideration by virtue of being placed on LiliS? Had I been placed on Zrael instead, I would be punished right now.

...I do not believe myself able to control anyone else’s actions but my own. So, after this game, I’ll pack my things and take my leave of LiliS.

[ whoa WHAT ]

Camellia, no—! [ shit shit shit how did she fuck up this bad???? ]

I would much rather do my best to be gentler than ever have you think something like that were necessary! There is no contest between the two.

You’re kinder than that. Punishing a whole team.... You don’t tear out all the flowers just because there’s a weed among them!

[ She knows what card was played on them, but it's impossible to say who was actually hit. Maybe it's herself? She doesn't feel any different, though? Does that make this better or worse? ]

I don't know if I'm very kind or not. But I try to be just.
This place... I feel as though it has tied my hands. Eclipse's death was a terrible thing to return to. He has been like a son to me in a lot of ways, and nothing I do can genuinely prevent his killers from getting back up and trying again—and they seem very much like the type who would try.

Only ZRAEL has the power to change that.
But... I won't ever force you or LiliS to be people you are not. I promise I will never ask you to be harsh or cruel, because all of you are very kind.

And how is punishing all of them supposed to make them do what you want? If someone were to attack Lilis like that because of one of our teammates, I would never give in to that type of bullying!

[ still speaking softly; this guilt trip is super effective ]

They'd certainly never cave if they saw it as a calculated choice. But negotiating with them directly didn't seem to work either. I don't want to accept the notion that there really is nothing that can be done.

When we punish— [ but she stops herself; shakes her head ]
—mm, it's too complicated and messy to get into. Especially when I really don't want to pressure you.

Please do not worry about me. You know I would never force you or anyone on LiliS to ignore your better natures.