GM Game: Heart Soldier Senshi

[idolpro]

[ The door shuts behind you, leaving you in a copy of this room. Upon one of the fancy tables is your card for the round, along with slots for each unit for you to go slide in your choices.

You can come and go as you will, but once you have left the room, you cannot speak of anything that transpires within: not your choices, not your discussion, not your alliances.

Do your best, idol-tachi. ]

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[inspiteful]

[ He rubs his temples. He -- is trying to be understanding, because honestly it's kind of understandable when someone's like that? It's just also hard because it's such a deeply frustrating thing to actually deal with. ]

I'll be frank, there's something about that kind of behaviour... [ He pauses, trying to find the words to express his thoughts. ] ...I don't know, it concerns me? I don't like him or anything, but...

I guess it's one thing if he assumed blame or chose someone's wellbeing over his 'cause...well, it's his choice. Some people matter enough to you that you'd put them above you one way or another, that's pretty damn normal. And some times you fuck things up, and you have to take responsibility.

But a lot of times, I get the feeling from him that he makes those choices because he values himself so little that obviously, it wouldn't be right for him to put himself above others' wellbeings and obviously, whatever fuck ups that he's involved in has to be his fault, no matter how complicated it actually is. That's different.

[dragonheartedgirl]

[ Hiryuu: I'm probably the last person to be talking to about not valuing my own life enough,,,,,, ]

Hurricane's had a lot of responsibility on his shoulders since the time he was young--and not always the sort of support he should have to prevent him from feeling he had to take it upon himself to put himself in that sort of position. That's a part of who he is. You don't have to like him, but it is important that we accept him how he is, the way we all accept each other how we are.

[inspiteful]

[ Don't think he won't want to shake you for that one particular thing too Hiryuu. ]

I'm not talking about accepting or rejecting him as he is, Hiryuu. He's still Heart, no matter what.

I'm asking if it's really alright to just leave that part be when it seems to me to be a sign that he's not doing okay here.

[dragonheartedgirl]

[ will it work though ]

[ She considers this. ]

I think what I mean is... I'm not sure that it's a sign that he's not doing well here. Or in general. It does make some of his interactions with us and others more difficult, and we can certainly talk with him about it--but unless Hurricane himself sees it as a problem, I'm not sure that it's something that can be changed.

[inspiteful]

I mean, when he refuses to tell us when he has problems and half the time we find out something happened to him only after the fact, and he won't let us help him...

[ He sighs. ]

Well, whatever.

[dragonheartedgirl]

[ On the one hand, she knows how difficult that all is. Eclipse isn't wrong.

On the other hand she remembers many a time when Eclipse ran off to AlcheME! for extended periods, not wanting to address his problems--so he's not always the best at this either.

And on the other, other hand, when he finally did, how harsh it had been and judged she felt--and sometimes still feels. ... But then, she's almost certain that that wasn't Eclipse's intent.

But probably talking about these things... might not be helpful, except in the vaguest of senses. ]

... It's difficult in the best of circumstances for two people with diametrically opposed ideals to see eye to eye, or to converse without argument. Hurricane hates conflict, and the harder you pursue that debate, the more he'll struggle against it. If we want to help Hurricane then we need to try to shape conversations into something that doesn't feel like a painful collision--not to mention the root of things.

However, if you're tired from it--then it's not your responsibility to handle. I'll see what I can do for it, and I'm sure the others will try to help as well.

[inspiteful]

[The funny thing is that he has stopped running off, after a serious conversation or two and some hard looking at himself.

Also it's like people forget he's 14, amazing.]

I kind of wonder if that's possible. I mean, not for lack of trying, but because it sounds a hell lot like something that needs self-reflection and that's almost never pleasant.

[dragonheartedgirl]

[ Well, you know. Hurricane is only a year older. In fact, none of them except Mercury are older than 18. They're all just kids, doing their best to deal with horrific situations that none of them are prepared for or have the counseling to equip them with the proper tools to deal with it all.

Also the person he's criticizing is only a year older than him... ]

It's a little unfair to say that Hurricane is uncapable of self-reflection because he avoids conflict with the unit.

1/2

[inspiteful]

[Why is it she's assuming he is criticising when he is honestly trying to voice concerns?

And for a moment he just smiles, but... ]

Hiryuu? Don't put words in my mouth.

[inspiteful]

[Then he just...sighs, tired.]

And get this straight. I'm not saying he's incapable of self-reflection. I'm saying I'm not sure if it's possible to talk to him about this in a way that isn't, as you say, "a painful collision". And it wouldn't even be his fault, it'd be because this kind of topic is rarely ever easy or pleasant.