[ The room is BRIGHT YELLOW, as all the rooms you will enter are. Black tiles make up the floor, changing to your unit's color when pressure is placed on them. There is a button in the very center of the room standing on a podium; it's slightly smaller than palm-sized.]
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Hallucinations - Crown Royale, cw clown royale
The circus music begins around you as you put on your mask. It is another starless night but it’s not like you would know underneath the tent. You can’t remember the last time you’ve been able to see the snow, but you can tell that it is winter once again due to the expensive coats the audience seems to be wearing.
You begin your performance, remembering your role. You exist as the clown, a clown to make the people happy. You are happy. You are happy! You[r mask is] are smiling. They laugh.
Ha ha ha ha! Ha ha ha! Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!
Your body is rotting away. Everything hurts. Every finger that you move, every joint, it cries in so much pain, you can’t stand it. But you cannot stop, because if you stop, they will stop laughing. And they will die. A world without smiles is a world that dies, and you know this better than anyone. That’s why you have performed every night, every day, every hour, every minute, ruining your body further and further and further. They tell you “why don’t you stop?” But you continue, in fear of what would happen if you thought for yourself even once.
You hate them. Why do you have to suffer like this?
And for a moment, you thought of someone important to you and their words, “you can be kind to yourself, too.” And as soon as you stop smiling, you watch the bodies of the audience fall one by one. This is your fault, isn’t it? You cry under the mask, but you are still smiling. The mask on your face cracks, and blood starts to spill from behind it.
After all, your face became that mask a long time ago.
Re: Hallucinations - Crown Royale, cw clown royale
Physical:
> Uncontrollable laughter
> A mask you can't remove
> Cracked skin on the face, enough to where blood is coming out
Non-Physical:
> Increased selfishness
> Decreased selfishness
> Increased restlessness/unable to stop moving