"It's not like I can live as a Servant while I'm in hell. As Avenger, I'm a monster - something that lives only to hate and kill and can't coexist with an everyday human life.
But that's the kind of life I'm forced to have here. I'm forced to live with people, eat and sleep and converse with them every day as if I'm one of them. It might not be a peaceful life for most, but for me it is."
. . . Well, I'm not really good at that sort of thing. I'm not human either, after all.
[ but she's probably more human than he is ]
But I can share what I think.
If you want to coexist. . . as both 'Avenger' and 'the person you are now', isn't that fine? Although if you really think that the former can't exist with the latter.
Maybe we should just rip the guts of that kind of thinking. I'm sure a good knife would work, right? Or, well. . . a specific dagger would work, too, but I don't know if I'd be able to find it in here.
[ ............ILLYA. ]
I'd just have to find the source of "being unable to coexist".
I hope it's both. I've never had the chance to stab anything, after all.
[ LET. HER. STAB. ]
Well, I understand a good amount of things, but not all of it.
[ especially since she can tell that he's changed a lot ]
But I plan on continuing to move forward, no matter what. Now then. . . are you the one with the next question? Or is there somebody else here that has it?
[ she smiles, polite as ever as she hops off the bed, looking delighted ]
I'll see you later, then.
[ time to see to that door that wasn't there before and try opening it; while she's curious about the other stuff... she really doesn't want to mess with too much here unless it's important. ]
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But that's the kind of life I'm forced to have here. I'm forced to live with people, eat and sleep and converse with them every day as if I'm one of them. It might not be a peaceful life for most, but for me it is."
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Hmm.
[. . .]
Do you want to kill that part of yourself? Or do you wish that part of you could do more than be a 'monster'?
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[ but she's probably more human than he is ]
But I can share what I think.
If you want to coexist. . . as both 'Avenger' and 'the person you are now', isn't that fine? Although if you really think that the former can't exist with the latter.
Maybe we should just rip the guts of that kind of thinking. I'm sure a good knife would work, right? Or, well. . . a specific dagger would work, too, but I don't know if I'd be able to find it in here.
[ ............ILLYA. ]
I'd just have to find the source of "being unable to coexist".
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"You'll get to see that soon enough if you keep going forward. I think the stuff I'm trying to say here will make more sense then, too."
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I hope it's both. I've never had the chance to stab anything, after all.
[ LET. HER. STAB. ]
Well, I understand a good amount of things, but not all of it.
[ especially since she can tell that he's changed a lot ]
But I plan on continuing to move forward, no matter what. Now then. . . are you the one with the next question? Or is there somebody else here that has it?
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And you've already answered the question I had, more or less. You can move forward if you want."
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I'll look forward to it.
[ she genuinely means that, too. ]
Is the way forward the way out of this dorm?
[ just want to make sure she doesn't get lost here ]
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He points to a door next to the one you came in through. It definitely was not there before.
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[ she smiles, polite as ever as she hops off the bed, looking delighted ]
I'll see you later, then.
[ time to see to that door that wasn't there before and try opening it; while she's curious about the other stuff... she really doesn't want to mess with too much here unless it's important. ]
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