Heart Game: Doodleman

[idolpro]

It's dark.

It's dark.

It's

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It's It’s It’s It's d̔͗̄͜͞á̵̧ͥr̓͗͘k̛̑ͭ͛͋̋ͧ̆͗͡.̢̉̈́̓͡

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You wake up in a dark place.

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Re: ☆ZRAEL

[constellationprize]

[ it's at this moment that she remembers she forgot to help shirou with the dishes, but -









her mom dyed her hair.............

after taking in the altered scenery for a time, she heads in the back - for her room first, then doodle's ]

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[idolpro]

The door to your room is locked, but Doodle's isn't.

Unlike normally, the room's a bit of a mess. The floor is covered in random junk - clothes, packaging paper, boxes of various sizes, a startling amount of knives, fanmail...

Doodle is sitting on the bed, going through a box full of papers. He glances up as he hears you approach, but doesn't say anything.

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[constellationprize]

[ right well

barging in per usual ]

- Doodle, it's really messy in here, isn't it?

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[avestan]

"Yup. Levi cleaned up a bit, but it didn't do much."

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[constellationprize]

But in real life it's neat... Luci's a lot messier than you or me, isn't he...?

[ she can only use like half of her bed because the rest is covered in furbies and bodypillows.

either way, she's moving to sit down next to him ]

Is it supposed to represent something?

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[avestan]

"It represents the fact that I'm a fucking mess, yes. I didn't think that needed explaining."

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[constellationprize]

We both know that I'm stupid! There are a lot of metaphors of varying complexity here, so it makes sense that I'd want to ask for clarification on some of them, wouldn't it...?

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[avestan]

"Yeah, yeah. It makes sense."

He pats your head.

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[constellationprize]

[ weh ]

Sorry...

Um, do you have a question for me...?

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[avestan]

"Sure do.

Am I already a full-fledged person?

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[constellationprize]

...

Um . . .

[ just kind of looks at him as if she wants to say she doesn't know what to say, or what that means, or anything even adjacent to that, but doesn't know where to start so she's just kind of

expecting him to fill it in? intuit that his stupid friend continues to be stupid, admittedly in this case because she is not a person anyway and has never been (her opinion)? ]

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[avestan]

[SIGH

WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID]

"What I mean is... I've spent all this time trying to figure out how to be a person, or how to avoid being one, or I dunno what. But maybe somewhere in all that I become a person without even noticing.

Or hell, maybe I was a person all along."

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[constellationprize]

. . . I don't know what a "person" is.

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[avestan]

He puts his face in his hands.

"You know what, that's fair. That's completely fair."

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[constellationprize]

I'm... I'm sorry... Um -

Do you want to...

[ um, ]

Put your head down...?

[ is lap pillow an answer. ]

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[avestan]

"...Do you want me to?"

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[constellationprize]

... I want you to do what you want to do. And -

I need to think of a better answer, and you're always working really hard, so it's okay if you want to relax, right...?

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[avestan]

"Dia, I'm just a heart construct here. I don't really have a need physical relaxation."

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[constellationprize]

But do you want to?

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[avestan]

...

"Sure.

Head goes on lap.

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[constellationprize]

[ time to pet. ]

Then, um... I still don't know if I can really answer your question... I guess my answer is that I don't know - I'm not a person in that sense, so I don't really know what one looks like, but I think... um...

Well, I told Shirou this too, but whether you are or aren't, and whatever you decide to do, I'll stay with you, and keep loving you, but... I think -

[ a pause, ]

... Mm, no. That's my answer. If I'm not certain, then I don't want to give you something like that... So -

So, I don't really know. So, I can't know, but I'll be with you no matter what happens...

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[avestan]

He closes his eyes, seemingly just enjoying the petting for a moment.

"...Okay. I'll stay with you too."

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[constellationprize]

Thank you.

[ ... ]

... I love you.

[ ... ]

Is that... is all of that okay...?

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[avestan]

"Anything you say here is okay, Dia."

Re: ☆ZRAEL

[constellationprize]

Um, but that answer - was that okay...?