Heart Game: Doodleman

[idolpro]

It's dark.

It's dark.

It's

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You wake up in a dark place.

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[idolpro]

The rain continues to sizzle onto your jacket. It's starting to smoke.

The t͏̸̛h҉̴̕ì̸̸ń̶̡͢͟g҉̵̢̧͘ looks up at you? You think? It doesn't have a face.

"What else would I do?"

[worldcup]

You can get out of here.

Go anywhere.

Do anything.

Do you really want to stay like this?

[idolpro]

"If I don't stay like this, I won't be Avenger anymore."

[worldcup]

. . . Do you still want to be 'Avenger'?

[idolpro]

...

"If I stop, I won't be able to forgive them anymore. I'll have to let this pain touch me again."

[worldcup]

You shouldn't need to forgive them.

And. . .It's unfair that you have to be hurt because you stop. Can I help you?

[idolpro]

"Nothing is fair. None of this can be helped. What happened, happened. That's the nature of this world."

[worldcup]

The past can't be changed, no.

But that doesn't matter anymore. It's done, after all. Lingering so much in the past will only make you like Zouken.

[ and fuck that guy tbh ]

You don't need to deal with this anymore.

[idolpro]

"Do you think I should forget about it, then? Who would I be if I did?"

[worldcup]

Forget. . . isn't the right word for this.

I think you need to move on. I understand what it's like, to cling to the past. But you don't have to anymore.

[idolpro]

"You know what they did to me. How could I move on from that?"

[worldcup]

I know too well.

And we only made it worse.

[ she says 'we' here, but there's something distant about that word.

as if she's not referring to him and Illya, but rather. . . the Einzberns, as a whole ]

But they're all gone now. And you have many, more important people to you now, don't you? So you don't have to-- you shouldn't have to suffer from the past anymore.

[idolpro]

For a long moment, there's no reply. Then:

"...You know, back in our world... I'm still on this mountain. Even though there's been nothing of me left there for over two thousand years, I'll continue to be there as long as people believe that evil exists outside of humanity."

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[worldcup]

[ she frowns a little ]

It's unfortunate that people continue to run away from their sins and easily put the blame on someone else.

And sometimes, I wish that maybe I could have done something —

[worldcup]

. . . but I'm well aware that I can't.

Not even to tell the world of that story. That maybe as humans are now, maybe they'd look into their faults more. . .

[idolpro]

"They wouldn't. They haven't changed at all."

[worldcup]

I —

[ she hesitates.

what right does she have to say something like this, and yet. she's saying it anyway. ]

I don't think that's entirely true. . . Not everyone is like that.

[idolpro]

"Of course not. Some humans are more evil than others. Some devote their whole lives to doing good. Most live their lives without doing anything remarkable for better or worse."

[worldcup]

That's why you have to understand that not everyone is like. . . that.

So it's okay, isn't it?

[idolpro]

"Did you think I don't know that? I've seen all of humanity from this place. I know how much good they are capable of, and I know that what was done to me is far from the greatest evil they are capable of.

So I forgave it all."

[worldcup]

No, I knew.

[ of course she did. but... ]

Will you keep continuing on doing that the rest of your life?

[idolpro]

"It's all I can do."

[worldcup]

I don't think that's right.

[idolpro]

"What does right have to do with anything?"

[worldcup]

Geez!

I'm not good at these kinds of talks. . . but! All you're doing is repeating the same cycle over and over again! People shove their mistakes and sins at you because they expect you to just forgive them so easily!

But more than that. . .! I don't think that just simply forgiving people is the only thing that you can do! That you're allowed to do!