Heart Game: Doodleman

[idolpro]

It's dark.

It's dark.

It's

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You wake up in a dark place.

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[idolpro]

"Idiot. That's why I hate you so much."

[sancrimony]

I know.

[ sucking in a breath, and shaking his head ]

You - have a question for me, I'm sure?

[idolpro]

"I do. But before I ask the big one-

Do you understand why I can't let go of this? Why I can't just stand up and leave this place?"

[sancrimony]

. . .

Is there anyone here who understands why you can't let go more than I understand?

[idolpro]

"There isn't.

Then... Should I try to let go and move on?"

[sancrimony]

. . .

If you were to do that, then you would no longer be Avenger.

[idolpro]

"That's right."

[sancrimony]

[ hum, shifting somewhat and taking a pause before he moves to -

well, there's probably not a single part of his body that isn't wounded by this point, but he carefully tries to touch him anyway ]

If I were to say yes, then I'd have to say that to myself, too.

[idolpro]

Touching it, you feel-

blades cutting, stabbing, burning, everyone you ever loved, and there's no reason-

"So you're not going to say it."

[sancrimony]

[ it hurts - it hurts, and his fingers falter for a moment before he pushes through the feeling, to properly stroke what little face the being in front of him has ]

. . .

I won't say you should or shouldn't.

But, if you really want to, then you should do what you want to do.

[idolpro]

"I don't know what I want."

[sancrimony]

Then, until you know, you don't have to do anything.

[idolpro]

"What does that make me, then? I'll keep on hating everything, but I'll remain unable to act on it."

[sancrimony]

. . . Really, I don't know.

[ softly, with a rueful laugh ]

Whatever it makes you, it makes us the same.

Being able to do nothing but stew on those feelings, unable to forget, unable to look away, unable to move on.

Hating everyone, loving everyone, hating everything, loving everything.

It's just the same for me. I don't have a better answer for you than you do for yourself.

[avestan]

There's a moment of silence, and then he laughs as well.

"Man. I complain to you all the time, but it's always been just as bad for you, hasn't it? Guess that just goest to show how selfish I am, huh?"

[sancrimony]

No - you complain to me because I understand best, isn't that so? Besides that, I complain to you all the time.

[ with a soft laugh himself ]

I'm sure someday our positions will be reversed, and you'll be the one to see into my heart, and we'll have the same kind of conversation then, too.

[avestan]

"Mm."

He holds out a hand to stroke your face.

"It's time to wake up, Ruler."

[sancrimony]

[ leaning in to the touch, smiling ]

Can I get a good morning kiss?

[avestan]

He leans in to kiss you, briefly.

You wake up back in the game tower.