Oh, I don't think I could think we were the same. I've seen a lot of things I wouldn't want Aya to see, and I don't think I'd ever feel right about claiming her life, when she's done so much I don't know about.
... really, it's better? I thought I was being silly.
It's a very common defense mechanism. What one side can't process, they pass over to another side that can. It shows the resiliency of humanity. What we think we can't endure, we manage to, even if it's by a slight conceit.
You're welcome. You'd be surprised. A lot of you are handling the trauma you experience here within all of the expected parameters. Granted, the parameters are mainly meant for service members, but you do fit the bill.
It's really nice to hear that. I - it sort of feels like we're all flying blind, a lot of the time. But my friends have been very kind to me, and that's really helped a lot...
[She breaks off. Looks around her.]
Um, what are we supposed to be doing here? I shouldn't just stand round talking to you all - whatever time it is, should I?
[She sighs. Casts a glance about the room. It's sort of - nice?]
But I should try, though. Since - I think Pink-kun said this was John-san's world? It wouldn't be right of me to have wasted his time. And I told Thorn-san we'd stay together. But... I don't want to do John-san any harm, either.
It's hard to waste his time. And I wouldn't worry about hurting him, either. He's been around for awhile; he knows how to protect himself. So, think about what you could gain the most from, even if just from John.
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I'm sorry. I'm going on.
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But it still might be better to continue viewing yourself as two separate parts. As a warning to the wise.
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... really, it's better? I thought I was being silly.
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[She slumps slightly and thank god she's not just being weird.]
That's... a relief, actually. Thank you.
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[She breaks off. Looks around her.]
Um, what are we supposed to be doing here? I shouldn't just stand round talking to you all - whatever time it is, should I?
[Even if it's helping, and she sort of wants to.]
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[She sighs. Casts a glance about the room. It's sort of - nice?]
But I should try, though. Since - I think Pink-kun said this was John-san's world? It wouldn't be right of me to have wasted his time. And I told Thorn-san we'd stay together. But... I don't want to do John-san any harm, either.
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I really should stay with Thorn-san. I know I don't look like much, but - I couldn't just wait here. I might be able to help him.
[Even if it's just by giving him a reason to look after himself.]
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