Heart Game: Hurricane - Run 2

[idolpro]

[At first, all is still; all is silent.]

[The only light is the light from your phone, where a checklist has taken over the screen. It reads:]

___ Make a change
___ Repair something
___ Protect something
___ Find the True Heart
___ Survive

[Then the light comes up, bright, and then brighter, and you are in…]

Comments

Re: CW suicide

[crossmyheartandhope]

[Gives a watery sort of laugh that turns into a choked kind of sob halfway.]

Is it real selfish to say I'm glad you're here? Like... I wish you didn't have to go through all that, but I'm still glad you're here.

Re: CW suicide

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[Pulls back slightly, keeping his arms around Hurricane and looking him in the eye]

It's not selfish. I want to be here for you for stuff like this. I don't care how awful it is, we can deal with it together.

Re: CW suicide

[crossmyheartandhope]

[He makes that watery little laugh again, and rests his head on Mori's shoulder.]

...thanks, dude.

Re: CW suicide

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[Hugging him tight, stroking a hand through his hair]

I hate that you feel like you had to build that wall.

Re: CW suicide

[crossmyheartandhope]

The stuff on the other side's stuff no one needs to see.

It's real bad, dude.

[Holding on just as tight back]

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

We've all got real bad stuff we don't want others to see. That's what makes us human. It doesn't matter if nobody 'needs' to see it. It's not something you need to lock away either.

[crossmyheartandhope]

Even I don't wanna see it, and it's in me.

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

I know. I really do understand how it feels, Hurricane-kun. There are so many parts of me that are horrible, and weak, and cruel, that I want to force down. I don't want anyone to see them, I don't want to be that kind of person, I don't want anyone to know.

But recently, I've found that, when I do talk about those parts... Things that I used to bury and feel so heavy inside my heart don't feel as painful anymore. I don't feel like it's going to choke me.

Maybe you have a lot heavier things than I do. I can't imagine they're worse than what those harbingers made me feel, but they could be to you, and I might have no idea. But I think... Sometimes, even if all you want to do is force it down and pretend it was never real, it feels better. To just get it out of you.

[crossmyheartandhope]

I don't wanna talk about it, though. I don't even wanna think about it.

Last time people came through here, one of em went down there and got hurt real bad.

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

...What happened to them?

[crossmyheartandhope]

...same thing that happened to me.

She got grabbed by goat dude.

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

Goat... dude?

[Mori was not there for that and doesn't know who that is]

I don't know what they did. But... That does sound bad. I'm sorry it happened.

[crossmyheartandhope]

I told her not to go.

She said she was gonna be careful.

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[Oh buddy, rubbing his back]

It wasn't your fault. Did she get out?

[crossmyheartandhope]

...yeah. Req came and busted her out.

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

Ah, that's good. I understand why you walled it up now, to stop anyone else from getting hurt... And I still don't think it's something you have to share with anyone who walks in. You don't have to talk about things you aren't ready for.

But I think, it would be good for you, to take the wall down yourself when you're ready. Or to at least put a door on it when this is over, even if you keep it locked.

[crossmyheartandhope]

What if I ever wanna go back in there again?

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

...It'd be your choice. It's an awful thing, I know you don't want to look at it. But if you keep it buried like this... Then it's always a part of you. It's never something you can move on from because it's kept too deep down.

It's not something you have to make a decision on right now. Some things, you have to take time, before you can go back to that place. But when you're ready to face it, then, you can stop it taking up so much space in you. And even if we're not inside your heart, you have so many people who'd be willing to hold your hand through it. I'm not the only one here for you.

[crossmyheartandhope]

I'll...

I'll think about it, okay? About a door.

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

Okay. Thinking about it is all I can ask. Thanks, Hurricane-kun.

[crossmyheartandhope]

Pretty sure that's my line. You're the one giving cool hero speeches everywhere.