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[ Snorts, nudging him. ]

So you're not enamored with demon-fighting boss lifestyle?

I'm enamored with the 'everyone is here with me and I'm able to play volleyball AND make everyone happy' lifestyle. It isn't possible though, is it?

Mm... maybe some kind of version. But I don't think this one is it.

I couldn't live happily knowing you were constantly in danger.

I do have a pretty rad desk here though.

And a very nice cage for my lord.

If baby boy could be a person that would be great.

You could make him one for however long we're here.

How?

Can't you use your Imeeji powers here?

[-Ohhhhhh!]

[ This is so weird to experience. ]

Sure you don't wanna go be big boss for a while? You seem a little more at ease.

Ah...I feel kind of....good? Confident? I can't put a finger on it. It's definitely an effect of this place. It's nice though.

Mm... it's good getting to see you like this.

It just....feels good to win. To be able to make everyone happy. To do something right.

... Is that how you've been feeling? Like you're doing nothing right?

I'm not really doing well at making anyone happy. And honestly, I'm pretty lonely.

[ Considering for a bit, swinging Silver's hand a little, grown adults can hold hands with their brothers and swing it. ]

Lonely as in... you'd like to spend more time with certain people? Or do you think lonely in general?

... I ask because you've kind of become the social hermit twin. And loneliness was something I felt when I was it.

I'm the social hermit twin, huh?

While I'm not exactly eager to see hard-working-lives-all-the-time Silver again, I see you in Wild City more often than not.

And not just because I come over for workouts.

Feels bad to socialize with people who will bus you without a second thought.

[ Gives a small shrug. ]

... It's typically not an attack against you though. Like you said, it's without a second thought, because in comparison to their life and relationships, you're just not a major part of it. You wouldn't think twice about a conbini worker even though you stopped by everyday, because they're just 'that guy' to you.

But what I'm trying to get around to is... why's it feel bad to talk with people when everyone's got the same understanding that we're in a place where sometimes, someone has to die, and no one wants that someone to be their important people? Which you sometimes are and sometimes aren't.

I don't know. More and more lately....I feel like I want to reserve my feelings for people I actual care about and who actual care about me. Rather than waste my energy making small talk with people who are going to let me die and who I'm going to let die in return.

... Is that really all people are to you? Someone who will either kill you, or you need to kill?

No, but I'd rather keep my caring to a select few, I think. It feels too fake otherwise.

That sounds very all or nothing.

... I think it'd actually be harder and more tiring, living like that.

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