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The first page contains a profile:

John, a member of LiliS. Probably the closest we have to a doctor in Imeeji. Not the most social, but still gets involved with things here and there, especially as relating to his unit. He used to give lessons in medicine.

The text begins in a neat print, shifting to something a little more handwritten as the words continue.

Weirdly invested in my relationship with Chrysanthemum. He’s suggested letting other people deal with my problems, but I can’t agree with that. People shouldn’t have to deal with a devil, no matter how unfair it is. Besides that, Chrys already left me to die alone once - jumping into a relationship like that is just asking for trouble. I can appreciate his lessons, at least. It’s better to have something to focus on.

There are a few more blank pages, and then the beginning of a timeline listing out the times in which John and Izanagi interacted. The line stretches on to the end of the book with plenty of blank space after the current day, eventually ending in a notch marked with Graduation.

Shouldn't but do, not that you're any devil.

[alright, going to collect up the scattered books]

You find three books on a table! Should you examine the spines, you will note a few things:

The Teal book has this shape on it.
The Yellow book has this shape on it.
The Blue book has this shape on it.

[flipping through the teal book??]

[It's an adventure story! It's apparently quite far in a series, because there's a shitton of characters that are mentioned without any other introduction.]

[and yellow and blue?]

[All part of the same series, though featuring less of the characters and earlier developments.]

[ok, putting them back. yellow in 5 slot, blue in 7 and teal in 9]

You’re deep underwater, and you are terrified.

Though you can breathe, it’s so, so deep, it’s pitch black, wet and freezing cold. No matter how much you look around, no matter how much you strain your eyes against that darkness, you are certain; you’re completely, utterly alone here.

You've forgotten how to see.

There is nothing left in this world.

You don't float, here. You're simply underwater - leagues beneath the sea. Deep, deep, deep down below, where nobody can hear you.

Nobody will ever hear you again.

The color here isn't merely dark blackness - it's something that pierces your soul. The sort of thing that threatens to tear you apart and make you as if you never existed

And the whole time, the words echo in your mind:

Never forget,
that when you feel happiness or joy,
it will never last long.

All things expire in the end. All things return to null.

When day is bright,
alway remember horrible night.

...Or at least, that's the scene you believe yourself to be in for a brief moment. Once you return to the present, you find yourself in the library still, surrounded by shelf after shelf full of books. And, should you check, your badge is glowing faintly as one of the fragments goes from clear to blue.

You've found another Fragment.

There is also a book in your hands with the name Hizumi Mizushiro emblazoned upon it.

[hm.................... and going to flip through the book]

The first page contains a profile:

Hizumi Mizushiro. 16. Clone of Yaiba Mizushiro. The Devil, fated to destroy humanity. Life expectancy: 18-19 years. Complications due to the cloning process have resulted in genetic abnormalities leading to decreased functionality of internal organs until death. Other than organ failure, the only other possible cause of death is by Ayumu Narumi.

The text begins in a neat print, shifting to a handwritten scrawl as the words continue.

Created with high charisma and intelligence to draw in friends and companions to assist in the destruction of humanity upon reaching adulthood. As the Devil, I can’t connect with others. But even a fake relationship is better than none at all.

I don’t want to be abandoned again. But I can’t be saved, either. So I’ll maintain what I can get to avoid that dark loneliness again. If I try to wish for things that can’t be granted, I won’t be able to hold it together anymore.

It would be so much easier if I could accept death.

I wish I could have been saved.

There are a few more blank pages, and then the beginning of a timeline listing out events in Hizumi’s life: Birth, transferal to a foster family, meeting Kiyotaka Narumi, studies, travels, meeting Ayumu, final meeting with Ayumu, and then his time spent in Imeeji. The line stretches on to the end of the book with plenty of blank space after the various games and events he’s participated in, eventually ending in Graduation > Return Home > Death.

[and time to mosey onto one of those chained pens . . .

~~As the Devil,~~ I can connect with others.

But I ~~can’t~~ can be saved, ~~either~~. So I’ll maintain what I can get to avoid that dark loneliness again. If I try to wish for things that can’t be granted, I won’t be able to hold it together anymore. Something new might grow, and that's scary. I've been hurt by wishing before. But I still have dreams.

I wish ~~I could have been saved.~~ something would save me.

oh, and just going to scratch out Graduation, Return Home, Death, don't need those either]

Edited 2021-01-24 07:54 (UTC)

[The words have been written - or scratched out and edited, in some cases. Is there anything else he'd like to add, or will he continue perusing the library/head elsewhere?

The bell is also tolling again. The wild roses have reached the desk upon which the explorers’ books lay.]

[considering his book for a beat then, yeah, heading out to the stage]

[The world's a stage, as they say]

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