Nemesis Heart - R2

[idolpro]

[The first time you try to open your eyes, there is nothing but red.]




[Questions bubble up, voiceless:

What will you keep?

What will you change?

What will you do?]





[And then your eyes open.]

Comments

Re: SOMETHING IS HAPPENING,

[send_noods]

[appears from behind some of the burned out rubble, now with a mostly ripped off shirt]

What is that?

Re: SOMETHING IS HAPPENING,

[crossmyheartandhope]

Something in the clouds?

[Then, more hesitatnt, at the sound of wings:]

...angels...?

Re: SOMETHING IS HAPPENING,

[idolpro]

[Seems like the chipmunk rangers won't be rescuing anyone today, as you stand flat-footed as it emerges from the clouds.

It is rhomboid and red and makes your eyes hurt to look at it too long, and your stomach drops to look at it, your knees shaking.

You can stand and fight--you can turn and run--it doesn't matter. It swallows you into itself all the same, absorbing you with blazing, searing red.

But of course this happened. You aren't good enough to have done better. You're weak. You're worthless. This is what you deserve.

And you burn from the inside out.]

1/2

[crossmyheartandhope]

[This is - painfully familiar, honestly. All of it, not just one part]

[The getting scooped up when he turns to run, the burning from the inside out, the sickening pulse of not-good-enough that thrums through him]

[He's lost in it for a long few moments, swallowed whole by it, consumed by the razor-sharp knowledge that he's just as worthless as he knew he was, all along]

2/2

[crossmyheartandhope]

[It takes him an eternity, but it comes to him, finally, through the conviction that he deserves this: that for once, perhaps that not-good-enough feeling isn't his. If this is her place, it might be hers, and that. Well, he knows for a fact it's wrong]

[He toggles on Buddy Bond, if it's there for him to use. Even if it isn't, he presses out with the conviction - a single success, bracketed by failures - that although this might be right for him, is right for him, it's wrong, if it's hers. It doesn't belong here]

[She doesn't deserve it here]

Re: 2/2

[idolpro]

[It's not quite Buddy Bond, but something like a response comes back, simple: No]





[anyway, at some point, this]