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[The world]

[Doesn't glitch??????]

[He hands back the phone.]

But as I was saying, you deserve to be happy for real. Be able to live peacefully. Happily.

...Hiccup?

You shouldn't have to feel like you have to fight. You should be able to make friends, go on adventures that aren't life and death, have fun, and not feel bad when you take something you wanted that was offered or at least it didn't hurt anyone to take.

[He stands up, looking around the room.]

You deserve to be happy.

I mean... you do, too.

But when you get all that, you deserve it to be real.

I'm not the one whose questioned that, Hurricane. Not beyond a few instances, I never made it part of how I saw things longterm.

That's why I wanted everyone to enjoy their time. To maybe just...accept they could have something nice, for a little bit.

[He heads over to a hatch that's built into the roof, opening it up to show the sky.]

What, so you're saying all this ain't even for you?

Why would it be?

[And he makes a sound that sounds kind of like a dragon call, making Meteor perk up.]

Cause it's supposed to be, like...

[He hesitates - crosses over to Rye]

...c'mere.

My dream world, right?

I don't need wild fantasies and impossibilities to be happy.

I just need Toothless. And people like you.

But there are so many people I want to make happy and that...that is a lot harder.

[He looks over and there is a sad look in his eyes.] And now I've messed it up with you.

Hey.

[Going to try and pull him in for a hug, if Rye lets him]

You didn't mess up.

[There is hesitation.]

[Then melting.]

I hadn't even told you I loved you in any sense. And then this gets dumped on you.

I didn't want you to know. I didn't want to hurt you.

[oh]

[that's]

[He goes very still for a moment,]

[Then he pulls Rye carefully closer]

...you didn't hurt me.

I don't want to make a good thing complicated.

Having sex was a good, uncomplicated thing and then my feelings kept growing and now...

I don't want you to feel bad or want to stop or...or anything like that. It might not hurt now, but I don't...don't want you to be hurt later just because my feelings are unrequited.

[Because trusting in his value is separate from romance.]

But that ain't, like -

[He hesitates - hesitates longer]

[Pulls back a little, to get a closer look at Rye's expression]

It ain't gonna hurt you?

What about, like - what about what you want?

Edited 2022-01-05 19:15 (UTC)

Any pain is nothing compared to not getting to be close to you anymore. [He looks to the side, looking ready for rejection.] I want to keep being close.

But it's also not just my feelings in the equation.

Edited 2022-01-05 19:20 (UTC)

[Okay, but Rye's feelings are the important ones,]

[He hesitates - hesitates longer. Reaches out, careful, to cup Rye's cheek]

...hey. You know I care about you a lot, right?

Of course I do. [He puts his hand over his.] That's why I couldn't say. You'd easily do something to make yourself unhappy to make someone else happy.

I want to keep the part of you I have, but I don't want it to be hurting you. I know it's selfish to be so demanding, but despite that ..

But the worst thing was if you weren't happy anymore.

...hey. It ain't selfish.

And it ain't hurting me.

I dunno, like -

I dunno if I can be what you want. But... I like you a lot, and I want you to be happy. You deserve to be happy. So if keeping on how we have been'll help any...

I just want you.

And you deserve to be happy too. I want you to be happy with me.

...I am.

You know that, right?

Because you like being close to me?

Yeah. And I just like being with you, too.

So you're not saying yes mostly for 'I deserve to be happy?'

I mean.

You deserve to be happy, too.

But that ain't why I started hanging out with you, y'know? That was just cause you're a good guy to be around.