idolpro | Kino's Heart Game

That wasn't the question.

I do what I have to in order to survive. Even if it's unpleasant... Dying would be worse.

It is all right for you to have an opinion on your actions, you know.

I could kill people too.

But 'could' doesn't mean 'want' or 'like to.'

I don't enjoy killing. But in order to do what I enjoy - that means I have to kill.

And is this really the only thing you could do for winter?

The snow is too high to drive Hermes through. Trying to travel in these conditions would be suicide.

So was this just one winter?

"Was?"

Is it just this winter? Did you do this before?

[They shake their head.]

No. This is the first time I've been stranded in a country for the winter, much less so long.

And that was the only option they gave you?

That's right. No one wants their loved ones to suffer needlessly, but killing is against the law.

Travelers are a convenient work around.

...

You know, its all right to hate something you have to do.

Even if its for survival, even if its your only option.

Whether I like it or not, it doesn't change the fact that I'm killing people for my own survival.

Doesn't change that, but it does change you, you know.

Oh?

If you tell yourself something is fine, it's okay, it doesn't matter what you feel as long as it gets done, then eventually you stop caring if it gets done that way or another.

You stop looking for other ways to do it because you know you can do it this way and it's easier. Even if you hate it, if you....don't let yourself hate it, eventually that hate means nothing in how you approach things. And if you might as well not even hate it, what if you do it when you didn't have to?

[Just... kind of staring at him, surprised.]

So...

Even if you have to do something to survive.

Your feelings still matter.

...I've never liked it. Killing people.

But I can't let myself die, either. So if that's what it takes... I'll do it.

Of course. Do what it takes, always.

But it's better to feel that dislike.

Because it's easy to do something you hate, something you know is wrong, when you do it unchecked for your survival. When no one tells you that this isn't what you should do. It isn't what you want to do. And a lot of the time you have to tell yourself for things like that. Because your morals are your own.

So if this is what you have to do, to survive, then fine. At least there's a shred of mercy this time.

But when it's you alone, you're allowed to say you hate it, that you wish it was different, so when it can be different, you try reaching for it.

Being able to feel your emotions is part of living to the fullest too, you know.

I can hate something without saying it out loud. The only one around to hear it is Hermes, anyway. And...

...I guess, saying it out loud doesn't change it for me.

I already know I hate it.

That's enough.

So it didn't feel different at all saying it?

Saying "I hate it" won't grant me forgiveness for killing.

Saying "I hate it" won't change the fact that I killed to survive.

Saying "I hate it" doesn't make me a better person.

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