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pep!pep! - SATURDAY NOON PST

[ The bar is unit-colored with light unit paraphernalia, although it's all just for show. Fortunately, comfort isn't part of the unit aesthetic this time—all seats are cushioned, whether the booth seats or the bar stools, comfy and lush. Idols can sit anywhere they like, it seems.

There's alcohol available, but everything else is locked behind the wall-cabinet. . . the recipe book is also available to peruse at one's leisure.

Ah—the door opens, and a fuzzy sort of shade steps in. It looks like idols will be serving the Damned, today. . . ? ]

RECIPE BOOK

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@LAVA: i do not understand many things the way people do.
@LAVA: So it is hard for me to say whether the things i have "felt" are grief or isolation or fragility,
@LAVA: but definitionally they seem similar.
@LAVA: i am not human, so i do not understand grief.
@LAVA: But i know i do not like losing things i am protecting.
@LAVA: i am not human, so i do not understand isolation,
@LAVA: but i know that when i was hurt and alone, i did not know what to do.
@LAVA: i only wanted to be with everyone.
@LAVA: And finally, even though i am not human
@LAVA: i do understand fragility.
@LAVA: Even before i was broken in the previous game,
@LAVA: i knew i would feel terrible if i was.
@LAVA: Because a wall should not break.
@LAVA: Learning that i can break and that there is not anything i can do about it is the worst thing i have experienced.
@LAVA: it was cold. and lonely
@LAVA: and all i could think about was how i could not save anyone else from the same fate if i could not even save myself.
@LAVA: So i suppose this fits the definition of "shame", as well.

We gotta teach ya hugs.

@LAVA: i also know what a hug is.
@LAVA: i do not understand how it would help.
@LAVA: also i am made of fire and you are not.

Yeah--not what a hug is, just like... it can help a little in that situation, even if it doesn't actually fix all that stuff? You can hug me 'n see what that feels...?

@LAVA: Affirmative.

[Gonna just come over and tie a ribbon on her again so he can want hugs at her... Well, I mean he's trying to be measured about it, but like... sympathy loneliness and fragility does bleed into his own awkward guilt things--but he thinks about how nice it was during Last Supper when she was a fire that didn't burn him.]

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@LAVA: You want to be on fire?

[ oh

geez ]

...yeah, I—get it, I think.

@LAVA: You do?

...I'm not really sure how to explain it in a way that makes sense, but...

...I don't think I like losing things I'm protecting, either. Or, rather—I feel very strongly that I shouldn't.