[ The room is BRIGHT YELLOW, as all the rooms you will enter are. Black tiles make up the floor, changing to your unit's color when pressure is placed on them. There is a button in the very center of the room standing on a podium; it's slightly smaller than palm-sized.]
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Hallucinations - Doodleman cw eyeball/tongue removal
You hate it, you hate it, you hate it, you hate it, you hate it, you hate it, you hate it.
You had another identity once. It’s a vague face in your mind, but what you actually remember are the feelings you hold onto for them. You are sad for that old self you once knew.
No.
You are filled with anger for them. You hate the energy that this anger takes up because, honestly, you’re too tired. Living with hatred everyday, it’s tiring. But you know you have to. You have to do it for all those who have had to suffer the ugly truths of humanity. Maybe you do it for yourself, too.
As your eyes are removed with a hot iron, you forget to cry. As your tongue is removed, you forget how to yell. But there is one thing you will not forget. You are made of hatred, toxic mud pouring all of your body. It is as if the sensation of death is all around, but not even that could compare to the resentment you hold deep within your soul. Because even though you forget who you are, you still long for the companionship that you had with those important to you. And you’ve watched them suffer so long even at your own hands.
Even hatred can be lonely.
As you feel the knife run up your arms, along the lines on your body, dragging cross your skin until you are covered in your own blood, you can’t help but think, “oh yeah, this is who I am”. You could try to escape, but is there a point?
A wish on the holy grail is never free.
Re: Hallucinations - Doodleman cw eyeball/tongue removal
Physical:
> Carvings all over the skin
> Grail mud impossible to get off
> Loss of eyes
Non-Physical:
> Increase anger
> Increased sadness
> Increase desire of companionship