[ ...Which is why he was — for once, tempted to let someone stay asleep. But he's still so very, very aware that he Does Not Belong here. Another, more furtive glance around the garden, like he thinks there're suddenly going to be other people here. People who know Izzy better than he does. ]
[ And a longer silence. He looks up at the sky, then back at Izanagi. ]
Kind of took the warning at the start of this seriously. [ But now that it's over, he thinks... ] That was probably stupid. Whatever they would've done to you, I'm sure — it's nothing you haven't been through before.
[ ...He really wants to ask, Did you wish people had left it alone? but. He feels like he's done enough making this all about him and whether or not Izzy's ever going to speak to him again after this is over.
[ There's a heartbeat of hesitation, where he just — gazes at that outstretched hand. Argues with himself over whether Izzy's really 'awake' enough in here for the offer to be genuine, instead of just an artifact of the dreamworld. A Chrys-shaped vacuum he shouldn't be presuming to intrude on any more than he already has. ] [ But Chrys isn't here right now, and this world is so — painfully empty, and... he can't leave Izanagi hanging. Right? ]
Heh. Rude. [ Taking his hand again. Trying and failing not to feel too relieved. Simple human contact. ] Lead the way.
[ He'll sleep when he's dead. What's one more, really. ]
[ Well, that lands like a slap. Lupine just stares at him for several long seconds. All the things he could say swirling around in his head.
I didn't want to. I thought this was a rescue mission. Didn't you say you didn't want to stay here anymore? Are you really happier here, all alone? I tried to give you the choice.
And one thing he doesn't want to say, but which is just true:
I'd rather go through another twenty of your torture chamber reenactments than keep standing here. At least then, I thought I was doing the right thing. ]
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[ Shit, he really wants — but he just digs his hand a little deeper into his pocket. ]
It's okay if you don't. I'll help you look.
[ They'll find it. He'll get you back... to where you've at least got a chance at seeing your boy again. ]
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[Hmmm.]
Then again, there's nothing really stopping us from just enjoying the garden until it ends.
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Heh. First time, so. Wasn't really sure what to expect.
[ He'd feel better if there was a door, or a... pillar of light, he doesn't know. Something. Chafing his arms slowly. ]
—Sorry, again.
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[Being in a garden > dying horribly.]
...For what?
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—For seeing all of this.
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Sure. But looking around and trying to figure out how to wake you up was my call.
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Kind of took the warning at the start of this seriously. [ But now that it's over, he thinks... ] That was probably stupid. Whatever they would've done to you, I'm sure — it's nothing you haven't been through before.
[ Beat. Studying Izanagi's profile. ]
Should've been your choice, which was worse.
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The last time they did this to me, it was worse.
[For him, or the people in it?
A mystery.]
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Instead: ]
Heh. Progress, I guess?
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—Still feel like showing me the rest of the garden?
[ That won't be too personal, right? ]
It really is nice.
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[But holding out his hand to Lupine again nonetheless.]
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Heh. Rude. [ Taking his hand again. Trying and failing not to feel too relieved. Simple human contact. ] Lead the way.
[ He'll sleep when he's dead. What's one more, really. ]
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back to the entrance, where a bench can be found (was that always there?) so he can bring Lupine over to take a seat.]
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Is this what you wanted?]...Izzy?
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You've been exhausted since you came out of the guest bedroom. It's easier if you take a break for now, isn't it?
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What— [ And standing right back up, thanks. ] Screw what's easier for me. What do you want?
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I didn't want to.
I thought this was a rescue mission.
Didn't you say you didn't want to stay here anymore?
Are you really happier here, all alone?
I tried to give you the choice.
And one thing he doesn't want to say, but which is just true:
I'd rather go through another twenty of your torture chamber reenactments than keep standing here. At least then, I thought I was doing the right thing. ]
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You must be sick of hearing me say I'm sorry by now. Go enjoy your garden, while you can.
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It's probably no more than an interesting stage for the dramatic finale.
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I don't understand you.
[ What do you want from him. Is it just to make him feel worse? Go ahead, take your best shot. ]
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