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☆ZRAEL - SUPER SESSION

[ The bar is unit-colored with light unit paraphernalia, although it's all just for show. Fortunately, comfort isn't part of the unit aesthetic this time—all seats are cushioned, whether the booth seats or the bar stools, comfy and lush. Idols can sit anywhere they like, it seems.

There's alcohol available, but everything else is locked behind the wall-cabinet. . . the recipe book is also available to peruse at one's leisure.

Ah—the door opens, and a fuzzy sort of shade steps in. It looks like idols will be serving the Damned, today. . . ? ]

RECIPE BOOK

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[ For fruit juice, it looks like they need to share a memory. Fine, whatever, it's not like this could be worse. So Aliza does so, just to get it over with. ]

[ It's bad, but they always are -- however, this one has some very serious implications for people she knows here. She comes out of it shaking so hard she has trouble opening the cabinet. ]

Uh -- sour. Right. [ She's just digging without any real purpose or idea for what to mix up, so she has an excuse to duck her head. How could she be so stupid? What the hell has she done? ]

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[....ooooookay.]

[Wicked Witch isn't sure what to say for a minute or two there. That was pretty intense. Eventually, she just kind of. Walks up next to Aliza and helps her find what they need, lemon and orange.]

...

The house looked nice.

[That is. An observation.]

[ Just sort of watching blankly as Wicked Witch -- or Viola, whatever they're using now -- pulls out various juices. ]

The guy who lived there was pretty rich, I think. My last memory of the place is a couple hundred years before.

[ And it wasn't pretty either. This is not the most intense memory she's had, not even close. ]

[She starts cutting up the orange.]

...may I ask you something?

...Yes. [ But if this is going to be snarky, she definitely won't react well. ]

....were you healing him or.

Changing him?

All I know is what you saw there.

But if I had to guess, the only way to heal him was to change him. That's why I didn't want to do it.

[ She knows fully well that her blood doesn't heal people here, not in the same way where they're instantly fixed up. But she feels sick all the same, maybe there are other effects which she hasn't thought to look for. ]

[ She plops into a stool and puts her face in her hands. She can't even check on anyone when she's stuck in here. ] I'm an idiot.

[Hooooboy. Yeah, as much as Wicked Witch was opining on how being a vampire was Cool and Sexy before, that's. Probably pretty tough to do to a guy.]

What makes you say that?

A lot of reasons.

[ There's a moment where she's very obviously debating how much to share. ]

It's bad enough to do that to someone when you know what you're doing, but it seems a lot worse that I let people here drink my blood because I was too careless to think it could be dangerous. [ Yes, definitely freaked out. ]

Did you let them drink it or make them drink it?

Let them. I would never...

[ She was going to say that she'd never force anyone into something like that, but based on what she just saw combined with a few other pieces of information, her asking certain people might as well be a demand. Damn. ]

I didn't force anyone.

Well, if they chose to drink your blood, I don't see how you could be blamed for the consequences of it, regardless of how much either of you knew about it. It was their choice, after all.

I don't care about that even a little.

[ Logic has no place in this, at all. ]

Turning people takes away their free will. Good intentions don't matter.

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[ stays quiet for a good bit, but ultimately murmurs, softly ]

. . . I don't think that you...

[ "did anything wrong," she seems to begin to say, but thinks better of it. it's how she'd express it, but not a wording she imagines is helpful right now. ]

. . . No. After something like that, there's probably only ... after something like that, I could only give my condolences, couldn't I?

Condolences to the boy whose life I just ruined, sure.

If those were intended for me, I don't deserve it. [ Obviously she has no way of knowing why, but that boy being hurt was her fault, she felt that very clearly. She got him mortally wounded and then yanked away his free will because she felt guilty. She's disgusting. ]

Couldn't they be for you both?

No. [ She accompanies the sharp word with an equally sharp gesture of her hand. Absolutely not. ]

... I don't think that's true. I'm sure that you'll disagree, but -

At that time, you were feeling panicked, weren't you?

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It doesn't matter. [ She keeps having to explain this to people, and it never goes anywhere but here. ]

Can you just let me feel bad about this? Please?

Ah - ...

... I'm sorry.

Is "I'm sorry" just a reflex when you don't know what to say? Because you haven't done anything to apologize for, and I haven't done anything to deserve someone feeling bad for me.

[ flinches ]

- Even if it isn't something that you think you deserve, it was still - ... it was still a painful experience for you. Even someone like me is able to see that, so of course I would worry for what ended up being done . . . for you, and for that boy -

But it's true that there are times when those sorts of things aren't really needed too, aren't there? So - for saying all of those things when they weren't necessary, too, I want to apologize.

[ Apologizing for apologizing too much... her head hurts ]

I'm not angry with you, okay? I'm angry with myself. That boy deserved better, everyone around me deserved better.

I think I really messed up, not just in that memory but with some other idols, and I... I don't know what to do.

. . . Is it something that you want to try talking about...?

...Maybe, but I don't think I could without violating people's privacy.

And also, you're really nice and you'd probably try to make me feel better, and I just want to hate myself for a while.

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