☆ZRAEL - SUPER SESSION

[idolpro]

[ The bar is unit-colored with light unit paraphernalia, although it's all just for show. Fortunately, comfort isn't part of the unit aesthetic this time—all seats are cushioned, whether the booth seats or the bar stools, comfy and lush. Idols can sit anywhere they like, it seems.

There's alcohol available, but everything else is locked behind the wall-cabinet. . . the recipe book is also available to peruse at one's leisure.

Ah—the door opens, and a fuzzy sort of shade steps in. It looks like idols will be serving the Damned, today. . . ? ]

RECIPE BOOK

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Re: Share a Memory

[constellationprize]

[ stays quiet for a good bit, but ultimately murmurs, softly ]

. . . I don't think that you...

[ "did anything wrong," she seems to begin to say, but thinks better of it. it's how she'd express it, but not a wording she imagines is helpful right now. ]

. . . No. After something like that, there's probably only ... after something like that, I could only give my condolences, couldn't I?

Re: Share a Memory

[sangreine]

Condolences to the boy whose life I just ruined, sure.

If those were intended for me, I don't deserve it. [ Obviously she has no way of knowing why, but that boy being hurt was her fault, she felt that very clearly. She got him mortally wounded and then yanked away his free will because she felt guilty. She's disgusting. ]

Re: Share a Memory

[constellationprize]

Couldn't they be for you both?

Re: Share a Memory

[sangreine]

No. [ She accompanies the sharp word with an equally sharp gesture of her hand. Absolutely not. ]

Re: Share a Memory

[constellationprize]

... I don't think that's true. I'm sure that you'll disagree, but -

At that time, you were feeling panicked, weren't you?

Re: Share a Memory

[sangreine]

It doesn't matter. [ She keeps having to explain this to people, and it never goes anywhere but here. ]

Can you just let me feel bad about this? Please?

Re: Share a Memory

[constellationprize]

Ah - ...

... I'm sorry.

Re: Share a Memory

[sangreine]

Is "I'm sorry" just a reflex when you don't know what to say? Because you haven't done anything to apologize for, and I haven't done anything to deserve someone feeling bad for me.

Re: Share a Memory

[constellationprize]

[ flinches ]

- Even if it isn't something that you think you deserve, it was still - ... it was still a painful experience for you. Even someone like me is able to see that, so of course I would worry for what ended up being done . . . for you, and for that boy -

But it's true that there are times when those sorts of things aren't really needed too, aren't there? So - for saying all of those things when they weren't necessary, too, I want to apologize.

Re: Share a Memory

[sangreine]

[ Apologizing for apologizing too much... her head hurts ]

I'm not angry with you, okay? I'm angry with myself. That boy deserved better, everyone around me deserved better.

I think I really messed up, not just in that memory but with some other idols, and I... I don't know what to do.

Re: Share a Memory

[constellationprize]

. . . Is it something that you want to try talking about...?

Re: Share a Memory

[sangreine]

...Maybe, but I don't think I could without violating people's privacy.

And also, you're really nice and you'd probably try to make me feel better, and I just want to hate myself for a while.

Re: Share a Memory

[constellationprize]

. . . Okay. But - ...

[ ... ]

... Um, if there's anything that you end up needing, or even if you only want to try complaining... at any time that you want to, you can. Okay...?

Re: Share a Memory

[sangreine]

[ The only things that she needs, she can't find here. And complaining would feel so selfish and gross, even for someone who already feels like she's both. ]

Mm, okay.