Heart Game: Sol [#01]

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[sleeplessknight]

[oh no...]

—But none of that was your fault!

[bluerosestyle]

[soft sigh. are we eating?]

If I'd defied the Taboo Index on my own, who knows... But I didn't think that was possible before Kirito helped me fell the original Gigas Cedar.

[sleeplessknight]

[he should eat!!!

glancing at the tree over there, like, ?????]

[bluerosestyle]

[he wants you to eat too :\ gestures at the food, eating alone is sad]

That's the Tree of Life. It's not really the Gigas Cedar, same as I'm not really alive, you know?

[sleeplessknight]

W-W-What?!

[bluerosestyle]

The Gigas Cedar was an enemy of the village that everyone wanted gone. What you see here is a demon tree just like the Gigas Cedar, but it's what is keeping me and everyone here "alive" now, as long as I fight and betray everyone I care about over and over again.

That's why I have to cut off most of the branches. It's not ideal, but it's all I can do.

[sleeplessknight]

What? What?!

[bluerosestyle]

[laughs]

It's fine if you don't get it... I can't really make it clearer than that.

[here, have some water!]

[sleeplessknight]

[takes it but doesn't drink]

What are you talking about?! Who are you betraying or fighting?! That's just wrong!

[bluerosestyle]

Yeah. But it's true. I'm always fighting my unitmates, and betraying myself by hurting others.

[sleeplessknight]

Stop hurting yourself!

[bluerosestyle]

. . . Myself?

[sleeplessknight]

Yeah!

[bluerosestyle]

How am I hurting myself?...

[sleeplessknight]

By doing all those things you just said!!

[bluerosestyle]

I don't have a choice. Maybe it's not the same for you since your unit gets along, but... even so, you know what it's like to leave people you care about to die.

[sleeplessknight]

W-Well, yeah, but...

[bluerosestyle]

[looks at

he's listening...]

[sleeplessknight]

... Don't do it at the cost of your own well-being!

[bluerosestyle]

. . . I don't know how.

I bought a lot of memories lately, trying to find a different way to deal with everything, but I think I made everything worse. Now everywhere here is freezing, and I don't know how to stop that either.

[sleeplessknight]

What do you mean...?

[bluerosestyle]

It's not usually this cold here. And it's been getting colder and colder lately. There's even ice floating down the river.

[sleeplessknight]

How can we fix that?

[... finally taking a bite of one of the skewers]

[bluerosestyle]

. . . I'm not sure what the source of the cold is. Finding it might help, but that's probably dangerous.

[sleeplessknight]

I'll do it! We're all supposed to be here for a reason, so maybe that's it!