Mori's heart

[idolpro]

All at once a rainbow of bright lights feels as if it is bursting through you. It is an intense experience, but not an unpleasant one. As the colours burn through your skin, and lighting begins to spark through your veins, you feel stronger, you could take on the world right now.

Faintly in the distance, beyond the iridescent light show that overwhelms your vision, you can just about make out some silhouettes, but they’re too blurred, too indistinct and too far to tell anything about them. You can’t see them, but you know they’re welcoming you. You’re wanted here, you’re needed here, and the light is guiding you where you’re meant to go.

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[idolpro]

"Are they? What kind of feelings do you think I am?"

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[asonoficeandfire]

I can't tell exactly. But feelings that aren't always comfortable. Like anger, or hatred.

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[idolpro]

"...Yeah. Something like that, I guess, wouldn't be inaccurate. If that's what you wanna say, you wouldn't be wrong."

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[asonoficeandfire]

I have those feelings too.

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[idolpro]

"...I know..."

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[asonoficeandfire]

And I'm not going to think less of you for having them.

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[idolpro]

"...Do you think less of yourself?"

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[asonoficeandfire]

[... curls his fingers into a loose fist]

Mm... it's happened.

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[idolpro]

He shuffles awkwardly on the rail, looking down.

"And would you get rid of those feelings if you could?"

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[asonoficeandfire]

[... lets his hand drop, coming up beside Mori, leaning his back against the fence]

Yes and no.

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[idolpro]

Tensing up.

"Why not?"

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[asonoficeandfire]

I don't like them, and they frustrate me. But... they kind of help me forward as much as any other feeling, even if I don't remember much. At least that's what it feels like. Even if—

[pauses, turning to look at Mori]

Even if they blinded me for a while. They're still my feelings.

Re: Rooftop

[idolpro]

"...It's easy to get blinded, isn't it? You're moving forward. That's good, that you can use it constructively.

But I don't think that's what I'm for."

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[asonoficeandfire]

[shrugs]

I'm saying you're allowed to have them. You're... keeping yourself far away up here alone. Like you're deliberately deciding you're bad.

What do you think you're for?

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[idolpro]

Snapping harshly, "I'm not for helping anyone move forward through anything, that's for sure."

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[asonoficeandfire]

I wasn't looking for help. You've given me that already. I just want to keep you company.

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[idolpro]

"But why? Why come hang out with the worst part of me?"

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[asonoficeandfire]

... because you're my best friend?



...



At least. To me, you are.

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[idolpro]

Oh no he turns red.

"You - you're mine too. But... there's really so much better around here."

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[asonoficeandfire]

[shrugs]

Hm... maybe. Feelings are difficult. But I do understand this one.

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[idolpro]

He looks down, grim. "You're probably not as cruel with yours though."

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[asonoficeandfire]

How do you define cruel?

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[idolpro]

"...Wanting to hurt yourself just to make other people feel bad?"

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[asonoficeandfire]

[...]

I don't think I'd exactly call that cruel...

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[idolpro]

He scoffs, "What else would you call that?"